I Look Sick? Think Again

Anyone dares to tell me that I look sick when I'm skinny, I'll slit your throat okay. Why can't everyone just shut up and mind their own business. Even if I look fat, overweight or obese to you, so what?!??!! Even if I am thin, slender than your granny, skinny or not, you don't have to tell me alright.

You see it with your pair of eyes, you jolly well keep those nasty comments to yourself. I really don't need it. I just don't need it.

Hello, I do eat okay. I'm controlling my diet and that's all. You do not have any reason to tell me that I look sick because I know my health hell better than you. You're not me at all and so shut up.

I'm neither skinny nor am I thin alright. I still find myself fat whenever I look at myself in the mirror. That's a really scary thing to look at. I mean to look at your own reflection and to know that you look fat is totally not right. Agree?

And I'm trying so hard to avoid all camera shots of myself lately and why? I don't think it's the right time for photos now. I always see myself as a big and fat person in every photos. So I hope anywho out there understand the situation I'm in. I'm really fucked up right now. I'm fucken depressed. I'm not in the mood to eat. I'm disppointed with myself.

I had enough of people saying and telling me "You're sooo thin. You look sick!"
Granny told me this.
Mom told me this as well.
Even dad.
My friends too.
And worse, anonymous whom I'm not connected to, said that to me.

What is that for anyway?

Fuck you. Yes, fuck you.


This is the current photo of myself in white sleep-wear alright. Look at that leg. Gross.

And today, I had noodles for breakfast and a few digestive biscuits for dinner.

So yeah, I don't eat?
Do I heard that wrong, bitches?


p/s: I wore white because I surrender! I don't want mosquitoes to bite me anymore.

Labels: Anorexic, Being Skinny, Bitching, Thinspiration